As Cystic Fibrosis Awareness Month comes to a close, I want to thank you all. For reading, sharing, commenting, supporting, and being the most wonderful community I could ask for.
Obviously raising awareness is important the other 11 months of the year, too, so I’ll be continuing to do what I can in this little space to share my story – and I encourage you to do the same.
Tomorrow is my tri-monthly Hopkins appointment, and once again my nerves are getting the best of me. I’ve been thinking a lot about CF lately, more than usual. Partly because I’ve been more active in the community during CF Awareness Month than ever before. But I also think it’s because I have more time on my hands.
I left my job back in November for many reasons, one of them being to focus on my health. And while it’s been great, it means I’ve had more time to think about this disease. The future, the fears, the daily hardships, the questions, the community and all those affected.
Maybe that’s why I’ve been more quiet on the blog these past couple of weeks.
On May 1 I came ready to embrace this month of awareness and truly participate. I’m proud of what I accomplished, but after the first couple weeks I found myself consumed by it. I dove headfirst into a community I’d held back from for so long, largely out of fear – both of the known and unknown.
All of this to say I’m trying to find a balance. The CF community is made up of some of the most supportive, beautiful, and compassionate souls – people I desperately need in my life. It’s also full of heartache.
It’s all too easy to get dragged down by the sadness that surrounds having cystic fibrosis. I find that especially true as I approach each appointment. But I know indulging in my fears doesn’t help. So I struggle to pull myself out, to replace the negative thoughts with hopeful ones. And, as always, I do my best with each day I’m blessed to wake up to. Reminding myself to take one step at a time, even if they’re only baby steps.
What do YOU do when you get caught up in your worries and fears?